Life Creation is your Life Story

Now that Christmas is over, and the new year approaches once again, what life story are you creating for yourself?  I am not speaking of new year's resolutions.  For the new year resolution never gets resolved.  

I like to think of them as goals. 6 month goals, 1 year goals, 3 year goals, 5 year goals.  How do you know you're on the right path, if you don't make a one for you to follow? 

This is your life story.  What are you doing to create a memorable one?  Are you wondering by in life thinking of ways to get on the path, or are you writing that path down and following through?  I know it's not easy, but it can be done.  You can create the life story that your grandchildren and great grands can pass on to future generations.  

Hard work, determination, dedication, honesty, love, respect, support...all of those qualities and characteristics are apart of your foundation building into your maximum life creation. 

Just a short 12 months ago that I was thinking about my life story and what I wanted it to be, what I wanted it to say...and the things, I've worked hard for, I was determined to have, the dedication I put forth into having it. The honesty I shared with myself about where I was in my life, the love I gave to me, the respect I knew I deserved, the support that was never wavering....I have accomplished what I set out to do with this journey called life. 

Now, I'm putting forth that same energy into making sure I transition from one career to the next.  I'm ready to make the move.  I'm ready to follow through.  I've done a lot of foundation building, now it's time to build the house.  

I'm turning 40 in less than a month.  I'm happy where I am in my life.  I'm committed to making the next 40+ years an even greater experience than the first 40.  

Maximum life creation will make an interesting life story.

Be Free...

It's not just a man's world....early AM vent

At the present moment I'm feeling like it's a man's world.  Why?  Well the screen writing industry gender composite is mostly men. White men at that.  Nothing against white men, but they just seem to get all the breaks.  Even if their work is crappy.

The industry being crowded with me is clearly evident on AS.  I see it in the forums, the number of scripts being submitted by men and well just general knowledge that the writing industry is filled with men. And it's not that they are better writers, it's just that they are men. And men help other men succeed. 

Side thought: Maybe there are more women who write novels.  I don't know, but just but this image in your mind: 

1. Female 2.Black (African American for my PC folks) 3. Live in Maryland.

I have three strikes riding against me.  I am keeping the faith.  Divine Order.  I will be successful.  I want to change my career so bad now, it's just driving me crazy. I also could be going about this the wrong way.  I think I write movies for EVERYONE to enjoy, not just the black people.  And perhaps I've been dropped in the lot with the other black people in the industry trying to make it just because I'm black. Maybe I need to think more out of the box on this.  I don't want to be stereotyped like a Tyler Perry who only really has one audience.  I want it to be where the audience is wide and far ranging.  Shifting the paradigm like the internet did for socializing. 

Okay...I feel better now that I've let that out! lol 

In the end, the overall goal is to be optioned and produced - to get credits and change my current employment status. 

I have a new quote now. DREAMS DON'T SLEEP! Where did I get that from?  Awwww c'mon son! I'm a writer...it came from me! lol ;-)

Be Free....

P.S. Don't go to sleep, cuz your dreams won't! 

A Dream Coming True....

This is the life. At this moment in time, I'm sitting here typing this blog from my laptop at my boo's house. Me and the girls have been here since yesterday.  We packed an overnight bag and came over to have fun with the boo and his son. This is how I've always imagined a family should be. He fixed dinner, we ate as a family, then he and I washed the dishes!!!!  You just don't know how much I dislike washing dishes, but washing dishes with him took on a whole new meaning. lol I know it sound "crazy", but this is what I've always dreamed having a family should be like...should be like....I LOVE IT!

I love it and...

I LOVE HIM....

Love to love....life is sooooooo much better with company!

Be Free....

Time | Dictation | It's Wild

I have two projects in the works I'm trying to complete.

It's SOMEWHAT of a MENTAL struggle trying to get them done around family, work, and my fitness schedule.

By the time I want to get to it I'm mentally drained. I figure if I want to get these things done, I need to just make the time.  However and whenever I can do it.  

Anyway, so I was doing some research last night and I discovered that my computer has speech recognition software on it...this was after I was thinking of buying the Dragon Naturally Speaking software.  My other laptop has DNS installed. Come to find out the Vista operating system already has that installed. LOL So last night I was "typing" up a storm by speaking.  I need to figure out how I can get it to work for my blog, email, Twitter, or anything else I do on my computer.  I need to get better with the commands. lol  The use of the dictation software will help me tremendously with one of my projects. So far, I found the software to be pretty accurate when dictating.  I'm pretty happy about that. 

In addition, I find it pretty wild that a couple of guys I use to date and one that says he likes me are trying to get with me. lol SAY WHAT?! Um...how bout...I'm really not interested.  I haven't even designed my man yet. HAHAHAHAHA.....

Remember to think positive thoughts. 

Love to love....

Be Free....

Days Gone By | On2danxt1

I can't believe I've allowed this many days to go by and not write in my trusted and most liked blog!  What have I been thinking?  Exactly! 

WHAT HAVE I BEEN THINKING?????

Well lets see here....since February 22, 2010, I've been thinking about a lot of things. 

1.  Toyota.  I own a 07 Camry Hybrid.  I LOVE THAT CAR! But I'm DISLIKING TOYOTA for the cover up a massive problem. So I thought about trading my car in....but my heart couldn't do it...so I purchased a second car instead. Now with the man in CA and his Prius (did I spell that right? lol) going crazy, my mom thinks I should just let my Hybrid go. But I love her!!!!! 

The things you love are the hardest to let go....

2. Which brings me to my next point....I'm still working on the residual feelings I'm having over my departure in my last quasi relationship. I guess I'm going through the stages of grief. First I was sad...now I'm angry. I can't think of the other stages at the moment...but I'll figure that out and post a follow up. lol What am I angry about?  Well now I feel taken advantage of. I'm working through it. I'm better than I was six weeks ago...but nevertheless it still wears on me a bit. 

and so....now I've adopted the motto.... ON 2 DA NEXT 1.....

3.  Last week there was a VERY bad car accident in front of my house....matter fact a week ago today....I wonder how she's doing.  It was a very young girl...driving a Honda Civic and a white van crashed into the side of her (I have pics and video - I will upload later - well I will try) and the MD State Trooper medi vac had to air lift her...it was so interesting to watch, but I just felt so bad for that young woman. I really hope she's okay!

Yes...her accident made me realize that I have STILL have the ability to be on to the next one....I'm pushing towards my the pictures I see in my mind a reality...and to do that....I've had to....

4. QUIT FACEBOOK! Well, not quit it quit it...but just not be on there. Once again like Twitter, I just saw myself wasting so much of time on these social networking sites and I wasn't getting anywhere with my writing career.  It is so easy for me to get side tracked...but my dreams can't afford the opportunity cost of me being on FB. (yeah there are some other reasons...of which I don't feel like explaining right now...but.....) It's all about allocating my time wisely. I'm getting engaged to the dream reality game - the DRG....that's my focus...making it happen at all cost and seeing the things I've written from my mind either flourish in an e-book (cuz y'all know traditional publishing is a loss cause) or up on the silver screen...or even straight to DVD! lol I don't care...I just wanna see my writings live on with the masses knowing about it! HOT DOG!

So yeah....that's where I am these days....making my way....it's my PERCEPTION...I'm still working on that goal.... 

Be free.... 

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Update on Friday, March 12, 2010 at 6:20AM by Michelle S Carey (pka Michelle R Sweeny) & ZETAZEN

The stages of Grief.... 

• Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
• Anger (why is this happening to me?)
• Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
• Depression (I don't care anymore)
• Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

Even though this is about death and dying....I look at breakups as a death of sorts...the relationship is no longer there....so......you suffer just like when someone passes on...the relationship has passed on....

Not sure if I'll go through the Bargaining stage....then again....maybe I'm already there....I thought I'd feel better when I got my second car...not just for purpose of having one because Toyota's cars having issues, but because I purchased a Mercedes-Benz....maybe I did it to boost my ego...thinking it would make me a better person.  Aaaaahhhhh......Clarity.  

I'm such a complicated person.