Crofton Triangle

I wrote Crofton Triangle when I was in school getting my MFA in Creative Writing.  It was my thesis.  The idea for the script came from the place I live, Crofton.  When I first moved to Crofton, I felt like I was in another world. The kids were outside riding their bikes and skateboarding without a parent in sight.  Moms drive mini-vans, Dads work in the city, and all the kids know one another from social interactions in and outside of school.  I felt like I stepped into a Norman Rockwell painting. 

Crofton is definitely a community that’s nestled away from the usual inner city woes and chaos.  It’s secluded by the vast amount of trees  and it sits up on a slight hill.  You almost think the residents that live there have a secret pass code to even be there.

The idea for the screenplay came into mind when I said…what would it be like if one family was terrorized in this tranquil community?  How would they react to their world turning upside down?  What if they had to face the seedy side of life? 

The script went through a lot of revisions.  It has its highs and its lows along with an interesting twist. Actually two twists.  You just don’t know where it’s all going to lead the audience.  I love how this script comes together.  It was my first stab at writing suspense. I really had a good time writing the ending.

Here is the link to download, review, and follow me on Amazon Studios.  http://studios.amazon.com/scripts/2411  I would truly appreciate the honest feedback.  The more downloads and reviews the better for me in making headway in this contest; but also the better for me in understanding and honing my craft.

Be Free....

Inspired

Decided to change my writing name.  SWEENY CAREY.  For some reason it rings a bell with me. It flows.

I need to do the numerology on it, but it just feels right.  It's my two last names...maiden and married. 

Last night I was able to clean up and edit one of my screenplays.  I was happy.  I did all 188 scenes.  I hadn't touch my screenplays in about a year, but last night I felt inspired to do so.  Maybe it was the madness at work or the fact that federal employees are having their pay frozen...I don't know what it was, but I felt I've let the game clock tick on me and now I'm in second quarter. I gotta get this moving. 

My husband said something to me that was so profound...well it wasn't anything I didn't know, but maybe I needed to hear it...through God and yourself all things are possible when you have the faith to know they will manifest.  He didn't say it like that....that's my version of it...but it has helped me to feel inspired once again. 

I'm ready to rock n roll.... turning into NIKE and JUST DO IT!

Be free...

Life is Better W/ Company

And I have proof.  On a whim, my sweetie took me to Philly for a cheesesteak...all because I had never had one! We decided that we were going to go and come back. Like making a normal food run. We just went to Philly to get it!

This is something I would have NEVER done on my own.  I'm so blessed to have him in my life.

Life exists outside of the four walls...physically and mentally of your own limitations held in your mind, the computer and your smartphone! Explore the world...see the vision...know it for yourself.

Be Free...

Life Exists Outside

Wow...it's been about eight (8) weeks since I've last written in my blog.  Doesn't even seem like eight weeks have gone by that fast. Well it has. Two more days and it's August! 2010 is flying by.

Nothing has drastically changed in my world.  I'm still with my sweetie. Love him to pieces. 

Work is work. But I'm blessed and thankful to have a job.  Too many people out here are trying to rob Peter to pay Paul and really don't have a Peter to rob.

The girls are good. Growing up and learning to make their way in life. 

My moms book is selling well. Please check one of my previous blog posts for the information on how to purchase it. 

Santana is calming down these days.  I can take him for a walk and he's not pulling me, but really walking beside me. I really need to get that dog properly trained.  He suffers from separation anxiety. Seriously. He's very clingy to me.  

I un-deactivated my Facebook. Now that's interesting. lol But I only go on once in awhile. I still find FB to be a done nothing website.  I do like playing the Texas Hold'em and the Family Feud on there, but for the most part, FB doesn't have any meaning for me. I've started tweeting again.  But not with the same passion I had once before.  I've said this once before I like Twitter much better than I do FB.  And I still find that Twitter is better social networking website than FB.  But these folks are allowing FB to be the spaceship from WALL-E.  It's making their minds fat with do nothingness.  I'm finding that life really does exist outside. 

My writing has stalled. I really hate to admit that. But it has. It's not that I have writer's block, I don't have the energy to want to write. I think about writing everyday, but I never put my fingers to the keyboard or pen to paper.  It just seems like a chore in my mind.  I'm hoping that writing in my blog today will help me get back on track. I feel like I'm wasting so much time, but not writing at least a page a day! DAMN not even a page today, yesterday, three days ago, two weeks ago or even these past eight weeks. I'm such a lush at the moment. But I promised myself I'd work on this.  Right now I'm failing me.  Me and only me. I need to recommit to myself. That's the only way this is going to work.  So given that notion that life exists outside, made I need a netbook and work outside to get this writing done. (Just another excuse...to purchase a netbook lol)

Remember - life is better with the good company you want to keep.

Be Free...

Content

Hmmmm, I'm at a point in my life where the happiness is so plentiful that I feel no lack or negativity. 

So many great things have materialized in 2010 that the sorrow I felt as 2010 called I didn't think this could happen to me.

I'm in love with a wonderful man. Who I pray, one day will be my husband. 

I FINALLY crossed the burning sands and now a member of Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Inc. A dream that has been deferred for 12+ or so years.  I have bonded with my line sisters as if I've known them forever. 

Looking forward to getting my screenplays optioned. And having my mom's publishing firm, publish my novels. 

My daughters are growing strong and healthy. The family unit and bond we share is terrific.  My mom is happy and is moving forward with all her goals...making them into a reality. 

I continue to grow spiritually.  I continue to see the positive in every step I make. 

I am enjoying being 39. The last year of the 30s. I have experienced so much in the last 10 years. I have learned much.  I am looking forward to the next chapter in my life. 

Love to love...life is better with good company.

Be Free! 

When you least expect it.....

My life has been flipped upside down just in the last few weeks. 

I can't believe this wonderful man that I've been getting to know so personally has been in my life for at least three years and we never decided to hook up.  

I ask myself why now? What made now a good time for him to finally tell me he liked me and has been liking me for awhile.  I'm just amazed.

I think I may know why.

It's because I wasn't ready.  I hadn't really figured out what I wanted until he came into my life.  I was still thinking that my last situation was going to re-materialize into what I wanted. But I couldn't see the forest through the trees of how that "situation" compares to this mature relationship. 

I completely understand how closed my mind was compared to how open it has been in this relationship.  I see all my past mistakes, all my wishes, all my could have beens, all my why did I do thats, all my why didn't I do this, challenge after challenge, misstep after misstep...and it all lead to me being the right person attracting the right man at the right time. I am thrilled to have this one man in my life. 

The one man that truly cares for me. The one man that has been fulfilling my every whim and dream before I can even think of it.  The man I'm getting to know...the man I'm going to love...the man that's going to love me back without hesitation or reservation.  The man I've seen everyday, except for one day, since we decided to hook up. 

My world was once...cloudy and grey. The dark clouds hung over my space for many a day.  It felt like any moment the rain was going to pour. As if the sun would never been seen again. The highlights that once shone was just a reflection of the real sunshine that was soon to come.  Now my days are warm sunny clear blue skies with white puffy fluffy clouds of love, hope, humor and joy..... 

I'm feeling the happiness of it all.... 

Be Free....

Claridad

Every mid December I begin to think about the new year that's about to approach...and EVERY year I think about how I hope the next year won't suck like the current year or the years previously when it came to relationships. And guess what...every year thus far since 2001...it has sucked. lol 

This year, I'm being PROACTIVE. 2010 marks a NEW DECADE....not just a newyear...but a new decade...a new period of 10 years - and I've decided that in this new decade....it's not going to be ANYTHING like that past 10 years. 

The fact of the matter is - I was semi-dating someone.  We had an agreement. I promised myself that my emotions weren't going to get involved.  But I stepped over the line.  This is the first person I've felt any kind of serious emotions about post SD era. This was a big step for me. If you've been following my blog, then you know that SD was a long drawn out relationship.  It lasted for seven years and it was a roller coaster of nothing. Ups and downs and it filled with nothing...just absolutely nothing. 

Anywho!.....things in my opinion started out really well between he and I. I really thought we were getting close and perhaps this could supersede what our orginial agreement was. Then it was finally dawned on me that this was NOT the case. As time moved on, he and I moved further and further apart.  I agonized why this was happening. This went on for weeks. The more he didn't call or text me, the more I didn't call or text him.  This is the kiss of death in any kind of interaction between people.  Effective communication is essential to have successful relationship. 

Today, it snowed an UNBELIEVABLE amount of snow....the DMV area has not had this much snow in probably 20 something odd years.  But this snowstorm gave me the opportunity to really sit down and think about where I am and where I want to be. It was during these blizzard like conditions, I realize that this person that I really felt internally was the right person for me, is really NOT the right person for me. I just happened to meet someone that I FINALLY felt who treated me like I've been wanting to be treated for awhile. And I fell in love with the treatment. He treated me like I've longed to be treated. 

This kind of treatment works so well with women who have been hurt,emotionally/mentally, financially abused by men over the years. I now believe I suffer from attention deficit. This is where women will SETTLE for any kind of treatment from a man just to keep that man around for the attention - no matter how little it is. We will listen to all the garbage he places in our dumpster because it's some form of attention.  But that attention just keeps him in CONTROL over the overall relationship and keeps us (women) OUT OF CONTROL - trying to figure what is going on. We are always second guessing ourselves. Wondering and thinking about him...what's he doing...why is he doing that....and we don't even confront him when he doesn't something we find blatantly disrespectful for the FEAR of him LEAVING!  lol That's straight trash! Trust me it is...if he leaves he wasn't the right one from the jump!

OMG! It's time to DROP this mentality! 

So I've done some self assessment.  I wasn't honest with myself nor was I honest with him.  I knew when he first approached me that I wanted to be in a relationship.  I just wasn't sure if Iwanted to be in a relationship with him.  Matter of fact, at the time I was talking to someone else.  Yet, the more and more he talked to me, the more and more I began to like him. But then I fell into la-la period  - you know that period of time that men take you through - and you feel all happy and giddy, but truly it's nothing but to get to the end result - having sex. And I fell for it. I was really thinking this dude was feeling me MORE than what we agreed to.  But know I see after WEEKS of really not having any communication, that if it was REALLY that easy for him to not COMMUNICATE with me, then he wasn't feeling me as deeply as I made it out to me in my own mind. 

I'm clear with this.  And I'm happy that I'm finally see it for myself. It's such a heaviness that has been lifted. I've heard some really solid messages from Lewis of iHustlenation and Dedan Tolbertof the DedanTolbert.net show. These messages have CLARIFIED so much for me. 

In all, I've come to accept that he's not the person for me. I wasn't honest with myself.  I'm scrapping my 90 day rule. A man will lasso the moon for the one woman he truly wants no matter how many days have gone by. 

Be free.....

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Contact Your Ex | Angel Card Reading

I can't stop laughing....I mean really....is this apart of my transformation? Is this apart of my change? 

Now just the other night I received a call from my ex that I was with on and off for about seven years. Like I said in my previous blog post, I felt a HUGE shift in consciousness - I knew I had moved on. 

Well this must be contact your ex week...because I JUST received a call from another one of my exes. WOW! I'm like amazed. He was DEFINITELY one of the LAST people I thought would be contacting me. I hadn't heard from him in months and I hadn't seen him since before the summer started. 

I'm just so baffled by this - Did I send out a beacon? I mean well I did, but not to them! I love it. It does make a girl feel good. I'm laughing uncontrollably at the moment.  

How about this? The ones that want you...you don't want and ones you want...don't want you....the world turns on such crazy conflict and donkey drama!

The sun shone today for the first time in days and I woke up with just high spirits, I feel positive and love in my heart! I guess others are sensing my shine. 

Today's Angel Cards fit right into how I'm feeling:

The Angel of Balance: I AM in perfect balance and harmony with life. 

Single Angel Card: Tenderness

YES! I'm feeling this. 

For awhile I've been feeling off balance and my blog posts have outwardly expressed my displeasure with areas of my life. But it was like everything has changed.  

Just the other day I was terribly sick.  I had some kind of stomach virus. I was sleeping beauty.  I went to sleep for about 16 hours. When I finally awoke the next morning, my stomach still bothered me some, but I had a completely new attitude. I have NO CLUE what happened to me during that time, but I feel a wave of newness and complete still peace.  

I can't stop smiling and laughing. Nothing can break this mood. 

Not even my Philadelphia Eagles losing....of which this VERY moment they are. I've accepted so much loss of things in my life that I've learned to accept it's just apart of life.  Oh well.

I'm still going to get me some Eagles jewelry tho.  I have my eye on this nice pendant.  

And can I just say that once again....that if every kiss begins with Kay, then I should have a RACK of diamonds by now?! lol :-)

Please laugh...at this very moment...just think of something truly funny and just laugh! Be happy....

Be free... 

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