Today...

is the best day - live in today's moment and enjoy!

Be Free....

Tackling the weight.....AGAIN.....

Ok, so I've been dealing with a weight issue for the majority of my life. I have gained weight.  I have lost weight. I have maintained weight...at the bigger number.  I have never discussed my weight out in the open to anyone for any reason.  

But in MMXI I am seeing myself in a new light.  There is nothing more for me to fear when it comes to my weight.  There are people bigger than me.  There are people smaller than me.  Weight is something everyone struggles with at one point in time or another.  It's just something we live with.  It's something I live with.  It's something I have to deal with. 

My weight is something I want to work on from the inside out and instead of the outside in.  In previous attempts I only thought about how I'd look smaller and not about health.  That's because I don't have any health issues.  I don't have high blood pressure, I don't have high cholesterol, I don't have diabetes, I am just overweight...without the high problems that people get when they are overweight.  I am lucky. 

So, I'm going back to the gym.  I rejoined LA Fitness up the street from me...with my husband.  I am committed to working out and eating right, but I'm not going give myself a hard time for eating something.  This is going to be slow.  lol I've set an objective of 1 pound per week.  The important thing is for me to see and feel this a lifestyle.  I can not make any excuses for not working out.  If I don't work out, I just don't.  No excuses.  I know that if I don't I will not make goal.  It's just that simple. 

My truth is, I am overweight.  It's my reality I live with, but the greatest reality of all is that realities can change.  Making a decision.  Choices...we all have the option to make one.  Make a choice and be happy......

Be Free...

Been a minute...

Well, it's been a few months since I last wrote in my blog.  You'd think I would have been very busy.  Let's just say I've been preoccupied.  Some really serious stuff was going down and I had to focus on it.  It was heavy.  Emotionally draining and I was really happy when I got pass that rough patch.  Now, I'm in a better place.  Not totally 100%, but moving in the right direction. 

So far, I've been married for six months and I love it.  It's nice to come home to my husband. And vice versa.  It's nice I have someone to talk to about everything that's going through my mind and have no judgements about what I'm feeling and thinking.  Love him to pieces. 

Work is work.  I wish they would take more of a private industry approach with allowing us to be creative thinkers.  It's so stressful working the way we do.  No wonder the moral is low. 

The girls are good.  The (step) son is good.  They are the usual kids...getting on the parents nerves, getting on each other's nerves...but we all like to have fun and laugh. I have a wonderful family. 

Bowling is interesting.  I was hot for a minute, but I have seem to have cooled off.  I need to get myself back together!  My team is in first place and they need me to step up!!!!  We can win this! 

Writing is writing.  This is my first step getting back into the groove. Sometimes I think I'm a fake writer.  I like to write, but no will or motivation to write.  The stories come to me, but I'm lazy about getting them down. Maybe, I'm more of an idea type of person.  Who knows?

I have things I need to do today and I feel lazy just thinking about them. UGH! I'm struggling with this energy thing.  Gonna get it together.  I have no other choice. First thing is first, I need to go downstairs and fix the house phone. lol Baby steps lead to large gains....

Be Free...

XXMI | 1.1.11

Happy New Year!

My first blog post of the new year!!! Whoo Hoo!!!  I hope that everyone had a safe one. 

I have a lot things in store for MMXI.  Starting with my blog.  I did an okay job of keeping it updated in 2010.  I think I could have done better. There was months I missed not updating because I was so enticed with living life off the net that I just couldn't do both.  But this year, I'm committed to really working on my blog, readership and growing it.  

I think my blog needs more of focus than just me rambling on anything that comes to mind. I need to focus more on writing and offering advice to others maybe.  Not sure.  Then there is always relationships.  But does the net really need another relationship blog?  Probably not. lol  Be nice people, respect them, say what you mean and mean what you say.  So there is the relationship advice for 2011. I guess I could work on my mother blog more, but do I really feel like giving out parental advice. So yeah, I even though, I think my blog needs more focus, I have no idea what to focus on.  lol So, I'll guess I'll back to what it was - me talking and writing about anything that comes to my mind. :-)

Here's some good script material:

FADE IN:

INT. BEDROOM - DAY

The MAN, (40) sits in his Ikea chair.  He plays his PS3.  He takes a pillow and props it up under his head.

MAN

Babe, can you give me the blanket?

A WOMAN, (40) sits on the bed, typing away on a laptop.  She throws the blanket at him.

He laughs. 

MAN

Aren't you glad I'm not like at a regular man? 

WOMAN

What do you mean?

The woman looks at the television. She shakes her head as she looks the score. 

MAN

I didn't ask you to make me anything to eat.

WOMAN

That's because your stomach hurts.

The man quits the game and restarts it again.  

MAN

Cheatin' ass game.

The woman laughs. 

FADE OUT.

I think I need to practice writing better scenes.  Maybe, I'll use my blog for this. lol :-)  Who knows?

MMXI - Carpe Diem

Be Free...

Merry Christmas!

Have a safe and wonderful Christmas!

I plan on fellowshipping (food, folks, & fun) with my family and friends; laughing a lot and being happy!

Tis the season to be jolly!!!!

Be Free...

Feeling Empowered on Amazon Studios

I've been reading and reviewing scripts online at the Amazon Studios website. I figured since I wasn't getting any downloads and reviews, I might as well help out my fellow screenwriters with their work.

I'm feeling empowered by what I learned at National University when I decided to go back for my MFA. At the time, I didn't see what my instructors/professors were telling me, but now...wow!!!! What I learned is definitely coming in handy.  Good loglines, showing versus telling, action, dialogue, story structure, premise, high concept etc....

Now I'm glad I went to school to specialize in my screenwriting craft.  I feel more confident in what I'm writing, how I'm writing, and if the story structure is strong. I spent a lot of money on that degree and now it seems to be paying off for me.  Well, it's beginning to pay off....I feel so empowered right now.  It also helps that one of the writers on the site decided to use my advice and told me he made a post of my advice within his forum - for all the other writers to see!!!! ;-) 

I have about five scripts to read and review.  My suggestions have been taken well.  As in my product reviews for Amazon.com, I'm getting a lot clicks for my feedback being helpful! :-)  I'm happy about this.  

Be Free....

Different Space

Life is an ever changing organism that never ceases to amaze me, challenge me, and just plain keep me surprised.  I got married.  I never thought I'd be able to say those words.  All the struggles, the pains, the broken promises, the heart ache I have endured from one relationship to another has come to the point of this wonderful man finding me and asking me to ... trusting me to ... wanting me to ... to be his LIFE PARTNER.  

The journey to this point has been interesting, introspective, educational and downright painful at times.  Looking back, would I say - could I say - would I change anything?  Of course I think I would, but how could I knowing that now I am mentally and emotionally in the right space within my mind to know...to feel, he was the right one?  All those experiences have led me to this one moment in time.  I have no choice but to accept those challenges and experiences...to realize they are apart of me and it is because of that, I'm where I am today.  Long hard fought and tough road, but I am now emotionally happy with where I am when it comes to relationships.  I am satisfied.  

I am so happy about the many things I have to look forward to.  2010 has been an amazing year! Next month I will recap and compare.....

So this means my mind is clear and free to write, right?

Be free....

| Awakenings |

What was once a dream has materialized in more ways than one. I'm deeply in love. More deeply than before. The sun has never shone so bright in my life that even the more annoying things get smiles. This man I've chosen to love and who has chosen to return love to me is my most Godly prayer answered. I'm happy period

It has been awhile since I've last written.  My time has been consumed with planning, thinking, hunting and sowing seeds for tomorrow's fruits of labors and passions.  I'm getting married.  I'm purchasing a single family home. I'm doing the ultimate. I'm content.

My writing however has been waiting for me to return. It awaits patiently as I move from one project to another. It wants to me to return.  And I want to return to it. My heart is thumping to the beat of write today...write today...write today. My mind is filled and full with other wonderful treats - as in the passion of when a man loves a woman. But today, I felt the urge to come back to my blog to type out few short wonderful thoughts about where I am - this moment in time - it's all about love......

I will write.

Be free.... 

Happy

Wow! I'm just so happy right about now. The new relationship has been working out well. He and I get along wonderfully. He's a breath of fresh air compared to the staleness I've been experiencing these last years. 

As the days come and go, I'm thrilled that he and I have found our way to one another. Words really can not describe the elation he brings to my world. 

I will keep you all updated as things progress.

Be Free....