Hard Work

Life is what it is....

It takes a lot to be the friend of a person you still love after so many bad things have happened.

You just don't know if you can give anymore of yourself...more than what you've already given.

I'm in love with a man that no other man can or has ever measured to within my heart.

But now I'm dating someone new. I am dating the person that I have prayed that I wanted my soul mate to be. And yet I have no emotional, mental or sexual desire for the new man. The new guy is all that I've wanted and I don't know what it is...I don't want it in him....

It just saddens me because I'll probably carry on with my life and eventually marry a man that I don't love.....but in the end treats me like I want to be treated.........until death do us part....

The person that I once considered my best friend has contacted me...I have flooded my mind with endless emotions. I couldn't even sleep last night.

Life is unfair.
Life is cruel.
Life is challenging.
Life is a double edge sword....

Love/Hate
Glad/Sad
Happy/Mad

Where is the balance?

In all, I'm not mad at him. I don't hate him. I only wish him the best in all his endeavors...and I only wish him the utmost success in all that he chooses to pursue. I'm really happy he has found his way home to God. That's the most important success he has accomplished.

To you....You know I'll always love you.....make the most of your life, D....it's your time....